Was on October 14th. I was, as usually I am, very much looking forward to my birthday. I always wanted that day to be mine and to do something special, but this year wasn't really a nice day. I guess something has to do the fact that we spent half of the day, from 10am to 4pm in a car driving home from Bratislava. I know being there was a part of birthday celebration and was nice, but still the feeling wasn't that good after all. Maybe you think I'm a bit too demanding...but I can't really say that! This year I also got rather little wishes from my friends :s And only one present. To be honest, it's not much about the presents (that were coming in next days), but I really wanted to have the feeling to open something and even if that would be only a chocolate, on my birthday. Miha kind of surprised me not giving me anything. I guess I was lucky he did remember after all, coz' he is very good at forgetting the things! :s I invited some friends over on my birthday and as at first they said they're going to come, at the end no one did. All did cancel :s We also bought the cakes on our way home for them, but than we all ate ourselves. I gave two pieces to my paretns and two for Miha's mum. Since no one came, we went for a walk and than wacthed TV. It was really nothing special. And now I turned 27 :s Kind of scary! I was thinking that I haven't done much in my life and soon I'll turn 30. :( I haven't finished my studies yet, though I hope I'll do it as soon as possible; I don't have a family, no children, am not married (far from that to be honest), don't have my own car....and could say few more things. :s To think all of my school mates have at least one child, are being married....and I am looser! It's on the other hand the truth that after High school only 2 of us went to University, but still...it makes you think! Changes needs to be done...just don't know where to start. OK, I do know that I won't ever get married and will have children in few years to come :s, so its logical that first I need to finish the studies and than find a much better job than I have now! And I hope I'll do all that before my next birthday will come! :) |
Honey, please do not be sop depressed!!! On the first hand: you will have a degree soon, you have done lots of travelling mums cannot do and also, you lived a life and you will not think at your children like those who stole your young years. Your diplom ios coming soon and it will also mean a better job by adria, right?
As for marriage and children... tougher thing... if you love him as mush as you can say ok let us forget about marriage. then what you do now is the right thing. But I also feel like he really should do this thing to you... I would not be able to live unmarried but still with a guy, but this is just me.