Carpe Diem: Love

Carpe Diem

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Love

What is love and how do you measure love?

I have had some love problems which are sometimes welcome, but still...it makes me moody and it makes me sad! I usually end up having too much time (evern when I'm busy) and so I start thinking all about, which usually doesn't end well. :s

You see, I'm that kind of person who is usually rather pesimistic than optimistic. :s OK, we could debate what's better, but so it is. My explanation (which is probably very lame) is that it's better to be prepared for worse and when or if it doesn't happy, I am happier!

I am also that kind of person who would sometimes PREFER to RUN away and brake up with the guy despite ALL the LOVE I HAVE towards him, than putting some efford and time into solving the problem! :(
Maybe the problem lies in fact that being with my current boyfriend (been 3 and half years together) ALWAYS puts me in loosing position. :( I mean, he thinks he's always right and always must have to be done his way and no way around. Even the compromise is sometimes hard to achive. BUT I still love him with all my heart, though he makes (sometimes) my life miserable!

How can a relationship be successful without taking and GIVING?? I am pretty sure he doesn't know that word (giving) very well. :s There's lots of TAKE from his side and very little to give.
When he tells me that he loves me VERY much...how much? With what can I measure MUCH and how should I know how much is as much as he thinks and says???

Though years of our relationship I used to leave him small cards here and there with notes! There were not many, but some.
Just today when already we had a fight, he tells me that he was looking to one and though how long he hasn't received any?? Hmmm....a month ago??? And besides...when I receved any?? NEVER!

Why are guys such a EGO humans and WHY they CAN'T EVER think of something like this?? Or anything else that would make US - ladies - HAPPY???

WHY?

Am not saying that ALL guys are like mine...I however, haven't find that kind yet! Will I ever? DO NOT KNOW, but if you know someone, you can let me know!

posted by Katie @ 1:41 pm

2 Comments:

At 9:15 pm, Monika said…

Hi dear Katie! Hope you are in better mood than at the writing moment... Life is pretty hard sometimes and seems like you are going through some sad times and not happy thoughts go through your head. I really hope it turns better and you know that you really do everything in your power to make things work. I have been trying to "escape" to the computer for a while to write a "better" mail but seems like this evening is no better (constant lack of time) so I thought to leave you a quick hi along with a big hug and say thay you are always close in thoughts. Longer discussions must be left for the mail... Thinking of you... Monika
At 7:13 pm, Katie said…

Hello dearest Monika,

it's been so long time since I read your comment on my blog and it's GREAT to read some words from you :)
I'm feeling better from an emotional side, but am still a bit mad/sad from the fact that my laptop broke down :( Yup, it doesn't want start :( and tomorrow I'll take it for repair! Now I'm using Miha's laptop :) since he has PC at home and can lent me this one until mine won't be fixed :) Nice, ha?
Computers are weird things without which I (and probably some more people) can't live!!! I was 2 days without it and felt like I am lost :( I know this is sad, but so it is. The worst part is that I'll need to put so many things back on my computer and that takes lots of time...grrr....

Anyway, THANK YOU for ALL your words and SUPPORT! Love ya! I'll be waiting on your letter and mail...and till than I wish you to have lovely days and don't work too much :P

Hugs from Katie :)